Sunday, February 20, 2011

This week could have potential....

So this week could have potential.  We could get our Travel Call this week.  I called DC on Friday and to no avail, nothing has changed in Korea.....at least on the US side anyway.  Things could have changed in Seoul, but DC might not have the updates yet.   I've heard all sorts of scenarios.  We could get our TC even is DC doesn't see anything new.  Guess it just means the system is slow about updating and the paperwork is quicker...imagine that if that's possible?

This is my last week to work also.  I turned in my notice with work and Friday will be my last day as a working mama.  The whole thought scares me pretty good, but we'll manage okay.  Adjustments, adjustments, adjustments..... oh how I don't adjust well at all!  I think I'm going to be a basket case all week and probably for the next 3 months!!

Am I excited?  Not really.  I know that may sound shocking.  Everyone deals differently.   I'm scared, over thinking everything, a bundle of nerves one day, numb the next.   That's the way my mind works. I put emotions aside and deal with the task at hand.  Then when the moment arrives, I fall apart, because all the emotions come running back to me, there's no task to get ready for, it's there!  I've tried to 'deal' with this but it's just not happening.  My mind doesn't have anything to help relate what will happen, so I have no experience to help me deal.  So, I'll just be a complete mess when we meet Aiden, and that's okay.  I haven't lost my mind yet, although it's been MIA (missing in action) a couple of times, it still pulls my through and it will when we travel to Seoul.  So for now....I'll just keep dealing with the task at hand, getting ready to leave, praying  the call happens this week!