So today is the last day of 2010. I'm really getting excited, but..... Getting to this year has been a long haul. So many times answering, "no, not yet." And tons of "maybe next year" and too many to count of "I don't know when." So 2011 is vastly approaching - yah! I've had so many years of let downs, will this be our year? I've had so many years of "maybe this year will be our year" that I really wonder if this next year will be our year?
ML commented on a blog post of mine not too long ago. This is some of what she said, "I learned more about myself and grew as a person, a wife, a friend, and as a Christian more during his adoption than I did the rest of my life till that point." This is so true. I have grown in each of those areas, truly! Although this process has been really really hard at times, it has been a journey. I always wondered, in the beginning, why they called it a journey. I am traveling so far to get our son, but haven't gone anywhere yet! It's such a mental journey, that some days are just exhausting. But some days I'm filled with dreams of having him here, what our daily routine will be, and a lot of "I wonder how this is going to be with Aiden here." Sometimes when we're out running around, how's it going to be with Aiden with us? I can so see all of that happening. But our journey isn't over yet. Sometimes I feel this journey is just starting. Aiden may very well be coming home this next year - 2011. So, yeah, I'm ready! There has been disappointment after disappointment each year. But I've got a good feeling that 2011 will be our year!
