Friday, December 31, 2010

From 2007 till 2011

In 2007 we started our adoption journey to our son.  And each year after that I said, "this'll be the year!" And, each year, it wasn't our year.  So moving forward to 2010.  In July of 2010 we were blessed with this little guy's picture, Yeong-min!



So today is the last day of 2010.  I'm really getting excited, but.....  Getting to this year has been a long haul.  So many times answering, "no, not yet."  And tons of "maybe next year" and  too many to count of "I don't know when." So 2011 is vastly approaching - yah!  I've had so many years of let downs, will this be our year?     I've had so many years of "maybe this year will be our year" that I really wonder if this next year will be our year?

ML commented on a blog post of mine not too long ago.  This is some of what she said,  "I learned more about myself and grew as a person, a wife, a friend, and as a Christian more during his adoption than I did the rest of my life till that point."  This is so true.  I have grown in each of those areas, truly!  Although this process has been really really hard at times, it has been a journey.  I always wondered, in the beginning, why they called it a journey.   I am traveling so far to get our son, but haven't gone anywhere yet!  It's such a mental journey, that some days are just exhausting.  But some days I'm filled with dreams of having him here, what our daily routine will be, and a lot of "I wonder how this is going to be with Aiden here."  Sometimes when we're out running around, how's it going to be with Aiden with us?  I can so see all of that happening.  But our journey isn't over yet.   Sometimes I feel this journey is just starting.  Aiden may very well be coming home this next year - 2011.  So, yeah,  I'm ready!  There has been disappointment after disappointment each year.  But I've got a good feeling that 2011 will be our year!